tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27791489181760026292024-02-06T21:23:18.091-05:00A 300 Pound Journey to Being FreeScarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.comBlogger372125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-63250331922781741582015-07-08T02:31:00.000-04:002015-07-08T02:31:01.359-04:00Week # 57I'm down a pound!<br />
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Never feel like a pound isn't enough. It is. If you have to, look up images of things that weigh a pound. You lost that. Period. AND you didn't gain.<br />
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Any loss. Take it. It's a win.<br />
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Okay guys, my laptop is somewhere in the middle of the country, on its way to getting a new fan, and a new shell. Posting on my phone is a pain in the butt. So shorter posts now.<br />
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See you next week!Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-78126985168295763332015-06-30T02:56:00.005-04:002015-06-30T02:56:57.980-04:00Week #56I made it!!<br />
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I am officially under 300 pounds baby!!<div>
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This past week was tough, but getting under the big 3-0-0 kept me seriously motivated. I can ride a Go Kart now! Gotta plan a weekend...which will be hard as we are entering the busiest part of my year. I am so overbooked it makes me want to cry.</div>
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Today after the meeting we had lunch at Qdoba. I got the "Craft 2" which is essentially a smaller portion of two things. I got two chicken tacos with lettuce and salsa, and a side salad with fajita veggies, salsa and shredded cheese. The Weight Watchers app doesn't have the chicken from Qdoba in it so I counted the chicken from Chipotle. HOLY POINTS BATMAN. It was 14 points for all of the chicken on my 2 little tacos and my side salad. I counted it. I had plenty of points, I was just really surprised. </div>
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So when I came home I decided to check Qdoba's website and I'm so glad I did! The actual points value for the chicken total was 7 points...not freaking 14. I knew I liked Qdoba more than Chipotle!</div>
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I wonder how often I over count? Like how often I estimate high for something I'm not exactly sure of, and situations like this... I want to lose weight fast, we all do, but I also want to do it the healthy way. I'm okay with not eating my weeklies, though I often eat some...but I would rather eat all of my daily points. Weight Watchers already has us at a deficit so that we do lose (common sense), so I want to keep it healthy. </div>
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It's a struggle, mentally and physically to keep going and try and think of all of this and be mindful...but it's worth it. </div>
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I'm at the lowest weight I think I've ever been, maybe when I was a tween... I've never been under 300 pounds in my memory. </div>
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Tears y'all. Big ones. </div>
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My next "big" goal is 260. That will be 200 pounds lost. I'm doing this!</div>
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P.S. My computer is broken and going in under warranty (yay!) for repairs. So please excuse my typos for now. I'm posting on my phone!<br /><br /></div>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-51200568404607864392015-06-22T23:46:00.001-04:002015-06-22T23:46:19.524-04:00Week #55<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Down 7.6! I lost the 4.6 pound water weight gain from last week! I am now down 157.2 pounds.<br />
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Buuut I have a bit of a curve ball. My new doctor, who I love, wants me to start trying to get pregnant now, as opposed to waiting until I get to goal, or get under 250 lbs. I think she is worried about my age, as I just turned 32, and I have PCOS. Backstory: We tried to get pregnant naturally 6ish years ago with no success, and I gave up to try losing weight in the hopes that that would help me conceive. I am succeeding this time, finally, and stopping worries me. I don't want to lose my momentum, but I also don't want to lose my chance to have kids... So I made an appointment with my gyn, who specializes in PCOS and I am going to talk to her about it. I want to know if waiting one more year will actually be an issue. I don't know if I can make it to goal in a year, it isn't likely, but I wonder if I could get under 250? I also don't want to be high risk.<br />
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I'm not letting this slow me down, though it's all I can think about. I am going to keep going until I have to stop or slow down.<br />
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I had a date with my husband tonight and he took me to a really nice Indian restaurant. I think I did pretty well, but I definitely used some weeklies. Indian is so hard to count. I might have over counted too...but then the restaurant owner gave me free wine.<br />
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SO, tomorrow I am going to work out, and Wednesday, Thursday and Friday too lol. Meh, what is life without fun?<br />
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OHHH and GUYS, I am super close to being UNDER 300 pounds for the first time in my adult memory. I don't think I have been under 300 since before I was a teenager. I am hoping I can hold it together and get those last couple of pounds off in the next two weeks.<br />
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Hope you're all having a good week!Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-55004963507025376772015-06-17T01:31:00.000-04:002015-06-17T01:31:12.987-04:00Week # 54Another traveling (for work) weekend has passed! I gained 4.6 pounds, all of which will hopefully be gone next week. I'm really frustrated with traveling right now because I get a lot of push back from people about food. I spend a lot of time feeling like people are mad at me about the food I don't want to eat, or the fact that I count everything. I end up feeling apologetic for not wanting to eat pizza or crap all weekend. That is on TOP of the fact that my schedule is screwed while traveling. I get up at 12 noon normally. We are late people, my husband gets off sometimes as late as 11:30/12 midnight and we go to bed at 4am. When I travel I get up at 7am and I go to bed between 1 and 3am. So the hours in which I might be hungry grow, and so does my activity. I have never actually gained anything but water weight from traveling but it still makes me nervous while I wait for the next weigh in. <div>
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So if you can't tell, I am extremely frustrated with traveling and I almost threw in the towel and quit the traveling team this past weekend. I am frustrated with how often I am away from home, and how much I neglect things that I actually want to do, and I am frustrated about how food is handled. I have fun on these trips, but I feel like they don't really fit into my life very well anymore.</div>
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This past week I also went to a Florence + the Machine concert and it was amazing. Two years ago I went to a concert at the same venue and I had trouble standing the whole time. This time, I stood, danced, sang, jumped, and absolutely rocked it. I did not sit down once the music began!</div>
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Me at Florence two years ago:</div>
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And more good news. I went to the dance at the convention we were visiting on Saturday night (really Sunday morning) and I actually danced for 3 hours straight. It was amazing, and I was so tired, but I was actually able to walk the next day which would NEVER have been true in the past. I wore a cute pink dress and in 3 hours I made 15,338 steps. I broke 20k for the day on Sunday. I'm really proud of that.</div>
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So that is my week. Sorry the post is a day late, I actually forgot. I have had so much on my mind, including a doctors appointment with a new doctor in the morning, Wish me luck!</div>
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I lost weight this week! I am down 3.6 pounds for a total of 154.2!</div>
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I was having a pretty good week until Saturday when we went to a cookout and campfire night at a friends house <i>after </i>a corporate meeting. We ate grilled foods, and I had HALF of a mudslide, and like a 3rd of a beer. I also had two slices of grilled teriyaki spam. Don't judge me, that stuff is gold. I also had a bunch of roasted marshmallows, our fire was epic, so it was fate. Fire + Marshmallows + Friends. I counted everything though, and while I used some of my weeklies it was not all of them (I had 30 left.) and it was worth it. </div>
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So this was the last meeting for the leader who had been substituting for our old leader (Who was out having a kidney transplant and she's coming back next week! This woman is a champ.). The substitute leader and I have not always seen eye to eye. We had a few "moments" about my weight loss being too fast, and I was required to bring in a doctors note. By the way, 1% of your weight each week isn't too fast. 1-2 pounds doesn't apply to someone who weights 400+ pounds. </div>
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ANYWAY. It was the sub leaders last day and she had mentioned that she would love one of the dessert recipes on her last day. I don't know how many people in the group had connected with her, but I felt like no one else was going to bring her anything and guys, she cares. The one thing I can really say about this woman is that even if her leadership style was hard to get used to, she legitimately cares about every single member in the room. So I decided to make her and the other meeting member <a href="http://www.skinnytaste.com/2011/04/pineapple-bliss-cupcakes.html" target="_blank">Pineapple Bliss Cupcakes</a>. DEAR GOD IN HEAVEN they are amazing... I used sugar free cake mix though, and added an extra half cup of marshmallow fluff and it came out to 3 points total per cup cake with icing. They were great, and at 3 points, feel free to enjoy one on a stormy night after dinner.</div>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-70006663219453549722015-06-08T01:25:00.000-04:002015-06-08T01:25:03.824-04:00Something that was posted on the boards tonight that made me think...So I am on the Weight Watchers boards CONSTANTLY. Particularly the 200+ Pounds to lose board. The posts keep me straight. I read them when I am feeling weak, when I'm out of town and I start making not great decisions, when I am sad/frustrated/angry/scared. The men and women on that board are solid people who have been working the plan for a while. Their experiences are valuable and helpful to me.<br />
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So tonight someone posted this topic: <b><i>What measures will you take to prevent a regain?</i></b><br />
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We can do anything.Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-4028956817511822582015-06-02T02:17:00.000-04:002015-06-02T02:17:10.512-04:00Week #52I am celebrating a year today! I lost 2.8 lbs this week and my total is now 150.6 pounds gone forever. I am officially half way there.<br />
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This year has been so stressful. I thought my brother was dead, and he isn't, but I spent months waiting for that call. Our money situation is so tight that when I check my bank account I get butterflies in my stomach. I have felt like the fabric of my universe was coming undone for a while now, and the ONLY thing I feel like I can control is this. I am so invested in this, and honestly sometimes it feels like I don't have enough energy for anything else and I am proud of myself for just getting through the day on plan.<br />
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I have trouble seeing my progress and I am really hard on myself, though I am trying to be more kind. I take pictures constantly in the hope that they will bolster me to keep going.<br />
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Tonight I cried about so many things, but one of them was this. Good night guys. See you next week.<br />
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-36718787760258310372015-05-29T02:02:00.002-04:002015-05-29T02:06:11.239-04:00Week #51 Part BSorry I took an extra two days to post this week. I have been busy, and honestly I was so relieved because I was ready to come back here and write this long post on not giving up , even when you're struggling , but I ended up losing weight. I lost 9.2 lbs, confirming that traveling on air planes hates me so very much.<br />
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So listen. Even when you feel like you are at your absolute worst. Whether you just ate an entire pizza, or spent the day on the couch, <i>or gained the week before and had trouble keeping it together for the week following that weigh in</i>... STOP. Stop thinking about how bad you are, or how unworthy you are, or how whatever you want most in your heart<insert etc="" from="" getting="" going="" have="" heart="" married="" on="" pregnant="" set="" that="" thing="" to="" vacation="" you="" your=""> is never going to happen, maybe you don't deserve it. STOP STOP STOP.</insert><br />
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None of that is true. We are worth it, and you know what? We deserve down time, and we deserve to occasionally have the foods we love, and we DO occasionally have to give negativity its space. Acknowledge that we are feeling out of sorts, and then maybe set it aside or wash it away.<br />
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I gained weight last week, and when I did I was okay at first. I know I gain weight when I get on air planes and I know that all of the eating out we do at conventions causes water retention. It didn't matter. I still felt like I was failing and I kept going over my week like there had to have been something I forgot to count, or many things I forgot to count. And none of that is true. I was as diligent as I could be. I went to the gym, I got in 10,000+ steps a day, 20,000 on Sunday.<br />
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It didn't matter. I tore myself apart, just like I know so many people do. My friends do it, the people in the meetings do it.<br />
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Be kind to yourself. Accept that you might have messed up and go on doing your best. One bad week/day/meal doesn't ruin anything unless you let it. You're human, and you're in this for life. Expect bumps.<br />
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That being said, I was a little irritated at the meeting leader we had. She read my weight loss number out loud. Then when I tried to explain that it was at least 6.6 lbs of water weight she told me (in front of the meeting) that I was downplaying the positive. That isn't it at all. There are 20 other women in that room. Some of whom probably struggled to lose less than a pound that week. I don't want anyone to feel like they would lose 9 pounds in a week if they tried harder. It isn't true. 9 lbs isn't typical, and my average per week is a little less than 3...and I started at 460 lbs. There was a woman who was celebrating a year on Weight Watchers, and her total loss was 25 lbs. Don't shake your head, you know rationally no matter how much more you have to lose than someone else that losing weight is hard and the fact that she kept it off for a year? I applaud her. Right after we celebrated her the meeting leader asked me what my total weight loss was...I was kind of irritated.<br />
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See you next Monday!<br />
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<br />Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-63713317314726945532015-05-26T00:59:00.001-04:002015-05-26T00:59:13.074-04:00Week #51 Part AI am calling this post "Part A" because my meeting center was closed today for the holiday. So I will be weighing in tomorrow.<br />
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It's good that this week is going to be a two-parter because I'm struggling y'all.<br />
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Not with the plan. I am counting and moving my body and trying to be as on point as I can be. Now lets discuss the "as I can be" part. I am struggling with my motivations.<br />
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My shoulder is hurt, my knee is hurt, my ankle is hurt. I had an allergic reaction <i>on my face</i> to a cream in my Ipsy bag this weekend, and I wore a bathing suit in front of my family for the first time in a year. So, I'm struggling with my body, hard core. My apron hangs, my skin has started to hang too. The apron is the hardest for me though. My pants cant hide it, shapers don't hide it, dresses and skirts don't hide it. I have a large chest, and combined I feel incredibly frumpy and unkempt. I feel incredibly unattractive. Combine that with the pain I am feeling and I feel <i>punished</i>.<br />
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So I have been eating more than I should this week and I think it's entirely emotional. I thought I was past this stuff. I'm not though. I find myself questioning what I am going to do with the rest of my life in a way that makes me afraid to get to goal. I'm afraid that I will be this empty, uninspired memory of someone who almost was.<br />
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I know these things aren't true though, rationally. I'm just struggling.<br />
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Big girl panties are on though, and I am still going, still fighting and still going forward,<br />
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Will I be a different person when this is over?<br />
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I'll be back tomorrow, hopefully with good news.Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-24487825056197457682015-05-18T23:21:00.002-04:002015-05-18T23:22:12.148-04:00Week # 50So many feelings this week. To start I gained 6.6 pounds. YUP. There it is. I should be upset, but I'm really not. I know travel makes me gain weight. Particularly flying. For example: Came home from Vegas in January and had gained almost 10 pounds. The next week I lost 14. Soooo even though I didn't have a perfect week (I had way too much sodium, not enough veggies and way too much fresh fruit) I really think I made good choices for not being able to decide where we were eating every night. I walked my toosh off, and on Sunday I probably got close to 20k steps.<br />
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So I'm looking at the positive. Last year when I did this trip I couldn't walk 50 feet without stopping or feeling uncomfortable. I ate everything in front of me and I cried at night because my feet hurt. THIS time I killed it. I walked everywhere, and I even went to the gym (Planet Fitness is everywhere!) on Saturday night! I was introduced to Chicago style deep dish pizza and I had a SINGLE slice, and a salad with dressing on the side. I had beef and broccoli and tossed the rice. and I had breakfast for dinner one night. I did good guys, and so no, I'm not going to let this bother me!<br />
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I also lost my wallet on Sunday night, and was stressed as all get out, but still made good choices at home after realizing it.<br />
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Monday started with gaining weight and ended with me getting 17 activity points on my new Fitbit Charge Hr. Is that even possible? Maybe because it reads heart rate it tracks intensity better than the flex?<br />
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I don't know, and I don't eat my activity points, but I would be interested in finding out how accurate that is. I like losing weight fast like everyone else but if I am really shorting myself that many extra calories/points then maybe I should pay attention.<br />
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Storming here so I am going to finish this in case the power goes out. STAY POSITIVE. This is life, and the are no straight lines to anything worth having. Goal weights are not the end, and so we should be realistic and real with ourselves and our expectations. Be kind to yourself, don't berate yourself over the numbers on a scale. Don't deprive yourself either. Keep doing what you're doing and I promise...the scale will pay up.<br />
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See you next week!Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-64072891114894906272015-05-12T04:04:00.000-04:002015-05-12T04:04:41.412-04:00Week #49 LONG post. Sorry.This week was a little tough. I had a birthday party to go to on Saturday, and the food was not great. The hamburgers were 11 points plus each. EACH. I did not have one. I had a single hot dog (8 pp for the dog and the bun) and a metric ton of raw fruits and veggies, 2 bites of cake and a bite of dirt cake. Then one of my friends who rejoined Weight Watchers with me wanted to walk to the swinging bridge at the park. We attempted the walk before the cake was cut, but we were called back before we made it. Afterwards though we made the walk! It was a long walk and there was actual terrain unlike at the track I usually walk on. So many hills! When we made it to the bridge I actually crossed it. I was terrified because it moves! Total our walking for Saturday was 5.46 miles. I'm super proud of this walk!<br />
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I am also going to Chicago on Thursday and I wont be home until Sunday night. I am nervous because on these trips my food choices are not always up to me and counting is hard. A few of the people going are also doing Weight Watchers but they are not as on plan as I am on the regular. There is also a lot of work stress right now. The longer I stay a volunteer the more I think I might be done soon. Again, a story for another day.</div>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-81816403447962240742015-05-05T01:42:00.001-04:002015-05-05T01:42:24.745-04:00Week # 48*I am calling this week # 48 because I am in the 48th week of Weight Watchers meetings for this go around.<div>
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In past attempts at losing weight weekend meetings and group outings always disrupted a good streak. I wouldn't plan well enough, and then I would look at a menu and pass up the best things for me and go right for what I knew I would eat too much of. It was a serious weakness.<div>
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Today was my weigh in day and I lost 4 pounds putting me at 141.6 lost total since June 2nd 2014.</div>
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My goal for Disney (Mid May 2016) is to weigh 240 or less. That is 78 lbs in a year, 1.5 lbs a week.</div>
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I think actually that I am going to start a challenge over on the Weight Watchers site for this to help motivate me. I can do this, and guys...so can you. It's so hard and it isn't just physical. It's emotional and psychological. I have conversations with myself constantly about what I want. What do I want more? Is this food worthy of me? </div>
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I am worth every step of this journey. Positive self talk is something I did not have in my tool chest last time. I have it now, and it is very valuable.</div>
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Okay going to run now, I have blended mango and other ingredients chilling in my fridge to make mango sorbet tonight. Good night!</div>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-47141696153165322102015-04-30T22:26:00.001-04:002015-04-30T22:26:24.763-04:00137.6 Pounds Gone For GoodSo as all of you know, I have been in and out of blogging and weight loss my entire life. The first time I wrote in this blog my highest weight was 417 pounds on September 9th 2009. I don't want to talk about why I gave up. Everyone has a story, something that took priority. No matter what it is it isn't worth it. I promise. My lowest weight before I gave up on myself and sunk into depression was 323.2. I gained back everything, and my starting weight this time back on June 2nd 2014 was 460 pounds. The heaviest and most unhappy I have ever been.<br />
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I couldn't breathe, I didn't go out. I was afraid I would embarrass my husband or not keep up with my friends. Traveling was horrible, I always worried about if I would fit somewhere or if I was too heavy for anything. I love myself, and I love who I am. Some of what I love I think I wouldn't have had I gone through life at a normal weight. So I take the good with the bad. I have some terrible self esteem issues and self image issues. The language I use with myself even now is so negative sometimes that I have to stop myself and start over.<br />
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So, on or around the week preceding June 2nd 2014 my close knit group of friends were talking about weight loss. They wanted to get fit, and they were talking about using each other as support. At first I balked. I just knew somehow I would never make up the road that I had lost so many years before. I felt so ashamed and so worthless. I thought it didn't matter, as though I'd had and squandered my only chance to be healthy.<br />
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One of the other holdouts in my group finally gave in and she said she's start tomorrow. I read her sentence and something came over me. I don't know what it was. Maybe it was the lifetime of tomorrows that I had let slip through my fingers. Maybe it was knowing that if I stayed in the mindset I was in, it would always be tomorrow and never today. I knew it needed to be today. So I joined them, right there in the moment.<br />
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I went back to Weight Watchers for a meeting on June 2nd 2014, and as of this past Monday I weighed 322.4. Total loss so far: 137.6<br />
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I am going all of the way this time!<br />
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I am going to revamp my blog here, I have so much to talk about, and at least 162.4 pounds left to lose.<br />
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I've already renamed the blog appropriately. I will probably post once a week this time around, as my life so so very busy these days and I feel like I can commit to that.<br />
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Look out for more changes!Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-63944341674371720512013-08-15T20:33:00.002-04:002013-08-15T20:33:50.684-04:00Day 37 - 44I'm back!<div>
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Well, I never really left. I just worked my butt off for a convention and went right from that into babysitting for a week while friends went to another convention. My whole body is still sore from all of the work we did, and I'm still short on sleep. Putting my feet on the floor on Monday morning was horrible. </div>
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My food has really suffered and I haven't yet come out of what feels like a tail spin. I guess this is me checking my controls and getting myself back up in the air. I'm going to be starting tracking again tomorrow and I even went to my meeting on Monday. So I really haven't given up or quit. Just bear with me through this.</div>
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I went to my first therapy session this past Tuesday too. I'm taking big steps here, I just still feel like a broken cog in a giant wheel that doesn't actually need me. She told me that she thinks I am a sponge. I absorb everyone elses "stuff" and take a back seat in my own life. She said that I take one back seat after another until I'm not even on the bus anymore...and THAT, <i>that </i>made me cry. It's so true. I wonder if I am dealing with how much I hate myself by trying to make myself important to other people. Not that I can't be taken advantage of in my kindness, but perhaps I have a real problem. She didn't say that, or allude to anything like that but she did say that she thinks there is a "thing" in me somewhere with my self esteem. </div>
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Therapy is hard, guys. I've only been to one session and I'm a little intimidated. I wonder if I am giving an accurate representation of my life, or if I'm clouding everything because I'm nervous and afraid of being judged. My therapist isn't going to judge me...I mean, well she is, but not in the way I'm afraid of. </div>
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Good and bad week, right?</div>
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<i>Please God, just let me get my act together already. I need to move on.</i></div>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-24130785833053375242013-08-08T02:22:00.001-04:002013-08-08T02:22:49.633-04:00Day 35, 36<p dir="ltr">I'm still here! I can say I'm going to post while working this event all I want but no matter how good my intentions are it's likely that my posts will be like this one until this Monday, which is my next weigh in day.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I tracked everything! I ate very little until around 11 when I might have eaten too much, but I am in my points. Our contact this year is extra strict and we aren't allowed to bring in any outside food and all of the little venues here were closed today because we were just setting up.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Anyway, I need to be up in three hours so goodnight!!<br>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-65897301073314619082013-08-06T05:59:00.001-04:002013-08-06T05:59:22.100-04:00Day 34 and Weigh in Day<p dir="ltr">It has been a much better day! I lost 2.4 pounds.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I'll expand on everything in the afternoon tomorrow. I'm about five minutes from home and I haven't been to bed yet!</p>
<p dir="ltr">My food was good today too, I tracked, went to my weight watchers meeting and went to the gym. So it's been good.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Goodnight for now.</p>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-36352877529122363822013-08-05T01:21:00.001-04:002013-08-05T01:21:40.081-04:00Day 32,33Okay so this weekend was terrible for me. Food wise, and plan wise. I ate badly and I didn't track.<br />
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I'm not giving up or quitting though. It was a slip up and I will survive. I need to learn how to better cope with "slip ups" because my journey is going to be a long one. No one is perfect every day.<br />
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This week is going to be a challenge because it is not going to be a normal week by far. From Wednesday until Sunday night I will be living away from home, and the insanity of this event has already begun. My weekend was spent talking with vendors and going back and forth from the airport.<br />
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I just need to keep it together and get through the next week. Look for my updates very late at night because I will only get a chance to update once I get back to my hotel at night.<br />
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Back to normal, plus tracking tomorrow. Goodnight guys.Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-74063497792114945042013-08-03T04:23:00.002-04:002013-08-03T04:23:29.484-04:00Day 31Hey guys!<br />
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This isn't going to be a long post! I had a really emotional day. I had a fight with my closest friend who is also emotional (her van was stolen and totaled last night). I broke down and cried for an hour before a friend pried me out of bed and made me go outside. I went to the house of the friend I had a fight with and we made up and cried. When I went in her husband asked me what was wrong (we are all pretty close) and you know how it is when you are trying not to cry and someone asks you whats wrong? Yeah I lost it again.<br />
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Anyway, after that my friend and I spiraled down the food drain for comfort. I didn't use all of my weekly points, but I didn't get all of my healthy checks in and I will be seriously shocked if I lose this week. I'm back on now, I'm not waiting until tomorrow but I'm also trying not to beat myself up over this. I want to move on. Life is full of hiccups and I don't expect to be perfect. I just expect the trend to be steady. I tracked everything so in the interest of full disclosure...<br />
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Posting this helps me to be accountable. I'm not hiding it.<br />
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Friday, August 02, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Small Plates Pork Egg Rolls</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Caramel Chicken Stock velvetted</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">18</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 serving(s) Diner Select Sides Brown Rice</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/4 serving(s) Sauces, Sides & Desserts Sweet Mustard Sauce</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">16</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">16</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 item(s) Boston Kreme Donut</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">9</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 small Iced Dunkin’ Dark® Roast Coffee (with cream and sugar)</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">8</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">40 chips Doritos Tortilla Chips</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">14</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">34</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">86</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-25919866713879893412013-08-02T01:18:00.002-04:002013-08-02T01:18:35.856-04:00Day 30So my physical went well enough.<br />
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Everything seems fine. I had a pap smear, and blood work and I got a prescription for birth control. Ocella same as before. It's what I wanted.<br />
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I am both excited and saddened. I am excited because I know how much better being on birth control actually makes me feel. I am saddened because it feels like one more nail in the coffin that I've been so reluctant to shut even for a time.<br />
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I have friends telling me that it "looks unlikely" that I will ever have children, as if hearing it so frankly somehow helps me to accept it as a fact and find closure. I don't know if that is ever going to get any easier, and I don't think I can apologize for it. I shouldn't have to. If my pain makes someone uncomfortable that isn't on me. At that point it isn't even <i>about </i>me. I mean <i>good GOD</i>. If I sit down to watch a movie with people and infertility is mentioned I get knowing stares and I get to hear my friends whisper quietly about how this <i>must </i>be affecting me.<br />
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I will find closure on this naturally, with my husband in a private setting, and with lots of time and healing.<br />
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I'll let you guys know the results of the blood tests etc when they come in. In the mean time I talked to my doctor about Weight Watchers and found that she isn't very fond of the new program. Funnily enough, neither am I. I hate that we are not counting fruit now. I mean I get that fruit being free encourages us to eat more of it in lieu of other things like chips and pastries etc, but fruit still packs a lot of sugar. So my doctor and I decided to give it some time the way that it is and if my weight loss slows or stalls that I should start counting fruit again. Guys, I can eat a lot of fruit. I eat it to feel full. I know I need to get over eating until I am like really full but one hurdle at a time right?<br />
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Gym tomorrow, and Saturday or Sunday to make up for today. Also new shoes tomorrow as long as I can afford them! Wish me luck!<br />
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 sandwich(es) Classics chargrilled chicken sandwich</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">15</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 packet(s) Dressings & Sauces barbecue sauce</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 serving(s) Side Items small fruit cup</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
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<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">9</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Side Items side salad</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">11</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Hormel sandwich makers pork bbq</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 item(s) thin sandwich bread</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13 chips New York Style Pita Chips</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">14</span></b></td></tr>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) sweet potato multigrain bbq chips</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 slice(s) American cheese</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
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<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) new york croutons asiago</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 oz cooked skinless, boneless chicken breast(s)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 cup(s) uncooked bell pepper(s)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Lite Buffalo Ranch 2tbsp</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 cup(s) fresh spinach</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) unsweetened dill pickle(s)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">8 medium uncooked baby carrots</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Lemon Greek Yogurt frozen</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) frosty lemon cookie</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">11 g Hormel Bacon Bits</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">21</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">63</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><i><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">No entries for activity.</span></i></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;"> </span></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-27773626440425678272013-08-01T04:38:00.001-04:002013-08-02T00:53:44.965-04:00Day 29...or the post that almost didn't happen.<br />
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No no no, I'm going to keep posting. I'm just in bed again. I know, I really need to get my act together about posting my food on time.<br />
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Today was interesting. I did a weekly grocery shop, but I need to go back Friday because we were pretty broke today and I really only got essentials. I consider fresh veggies to be essential and thankfully my husband agrees. He knows how hard this can get for me and he is pretty supportive.<br />
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I have my physical with my doctor tomorrow. I'm going to ask her about inverse psoriasis. I've had this trash/skin condition/yeast infection on my skin for many years. A lot of them before I had heath insurance so it was pretty bad by the time I was truly able to do anything about it. We thought it was yeast but now I've been through so many treatments including Nyastatin and a month of Fluconazole with no real results. The Fluconazole helped but not as much as it should have. I have plaque psoriasis on my scalp and on the very edge of my forehead and so I did some digging and found that inverse psoriasis looks a lot like intertrigo. AND inverse psoriasis can develop yeast infections, which is probably why the fluconazole seemed to help.<br />
I'll admit, I'm frustrated and I'm tired. I just want to feel normal and not like a giant skin shedding, chafing, smelly monster. <br />
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Anyway, hope good things for me for tomorrow guys. Doctors make me nervous. Too many bad experiences.<br />
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I'll copy/paste my food in tomorrow! Goodnight!<br />
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Edited to add food:<br />
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Wednesday, July 31, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 medium fresh tomato(es)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 roll Arnold Sandwich Thins</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 tbsp Heinz Mayonnaise</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">6</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 item(s) avocado</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 cup(s) uncooked bell pepper(s)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">28 gm shredded cheddar cheese</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) new york croutons asiago</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Lite Buffalo Ranch 2tbsp</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) unsweetened dill pickle(s)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 medium fresh tomato(es)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">8 medium uncooked baby carrots</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 cup(s) fresh spinach</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 cup(s) fresh watermelon</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 tbsp Hormel Bacon Bits</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Cooks Perfect Turkey Meatballs</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Buitoni Angel Hair (80g)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">12</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 slice(s) American cheese</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Tbsp sugar</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Average Pasta Sauce #4</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">24</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) twix</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 sandwich(es) Classics chargrilled chicken sandwich</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">7</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 packet(s) Dressings & Sauces honey roasted bbq sauce</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) food should taste good jalapeno tortilla chips</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">4 Tbsp fat free salsa</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 cup(s) strawberries</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Lemon Greek Yogurt frozen</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">10</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">25</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">68</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">10 min cleaning</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">20 min walking, (slow pace, 3.0 mph or less)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-78517062233613819972013-07-31T02:17:00.002-04:002013-07-31T02:17:34.421-04:00Day 28Today was really hard in more than one way. I've been feeling all moody and depressed. I didn't sleep well last night, I tossed and turned for hours and I ended up keeping Chad awake too long too. I was just an anxious about bills, plans, roommates and food. Lately everything has been really hard for me. So much so that I <i>finally </i>made the call to see a therapist. I have an appointment on August 13th. I think (as long as the insurance and everything goes well) that this could be a huge piece of the whole puzzle for me. I am pretty sure I have depression, and I would not be surprised to find out that I have some sort of anxiety disorder.<br />
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In any case, all I wanted to do today was sit in the dark with the TV on Syfy channel and eat. I did not do that though. I worked on my coupons, cleaned up the house, and made dinner. I ate too much today but that't not too bad of a thing considering I have weekly points for moments of weakness. I only used 9 of them.<br />
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I'm not hungry, but I do feel the need to self soothe, which I equate involuntarily with food. I've been coping but today I slipped a little. I was also going to start adding Tuesday nights into my gym routine but that will have to wait until next week. I'm exhausted. I know I have been saying that a lot lately, but I am.<br />
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Years ago, when I first started this blog, one of the tearful conversations I had with my husband involved me explaining to him that if I went to the gym that would be pretty much it for the day for me. I was way out of shape and over 400 pounds. This time around funnily (not) enough I am heavier than I was but still in better shape. Its weird, but its true. I mean better shape is relative when you struggle to do 20 minutes of cardio but back when I started at a lower weight I could <i>barely </i>do ten. Anyway my point is that though I am able to do more than just the gym these days I am still feeling incredibly spent sometimes. Okay, a lot of the time.<br />
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Anyway, onward march and all that jazz. The diet parade waits for no one.<br />
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Food:<br />
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Tuesday, July 30, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/4 cup(s) unsweetened dill pickle(s)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 slice(s) American cheese</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 1/2 oz turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2" square)</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 roll Arnold Sandwich Thins</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 tbsp Kraft Mayo</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">8</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Aldi Cracker Crisps</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) chicken and rice soup</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">6</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 container Muller Yogurt</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Cooks Perfect Turkey Meatballs</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3 serving(s) Buitoni Angel Hair (80g)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">18</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Aldi Cracker Crisps</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 1/2 Average Pasta Sauce #4</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">7</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">32</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 slice(s) American cheese</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Aldi Cracker Crisps</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">4 Tbsp fat free salsa</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Ben and Jerrys Raspberry brownie frozen yogurt</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">11</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 cup Campbell's Soup</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">22</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">75</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><i><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">No entries for activity.</span></i></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;"> </span></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
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Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-8543623656605716732013-07-30T01:13:00.002-04:002013-07-30T14:51:06.056-04:00Day 27 - Weigh in Day and FMMOkay so, drum roll... I lost 2.8 this week! That brings me down to 445.2 lbs. I'll admit that I'm anxious to see the scale move faster but I am really happy to see it moving in the right direction. Its hard to imagine 2 pounds a week for what could be a total of 4 1/2 years if it stays that slow. <i>And trust me, I know it isn't slow</i>. I know its normal and healthy and still a really great loss. I just feel anxious.<br />
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Does weight loss really get harder the more times you need to do it?<br />
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If you've taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section over at: <a href="http://www.alltheweigh.com/">www.alltheweigh.com</a> so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!<br />
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Ten Things That Make Me Happy<br />
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1. My husband. Seriously, I know its cliched but he is the light in my life. Without him I have no idea where I would be or what my life would be like. He kept my family floating before we were even married when we couldn't pay our bills and when things needed to be fixed. He stepped up when he didn't have to, knowing I would have wanted him even if he couldn't have. He loves me fat, mad, sad, he loves me on "ugly" days and even in the very early morning.<br />
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3. My friends. I seriously don't know anyone with a better group of friends than I have. We are bitchy, and gossipy and moody and unique but we always come together like a family down to Sunday dinners. When my toilet exploded and my basement flooded and we were broke my friends came to my house with dinner, a case of mudslide, and a brand new toilet. We might not always like each other, but I can count on them, and they can count on me. </div>
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4. Singing! I sing, but not professionally. There are a lot of people who think I could, but I've always had this weight making me afraid to try. Singing clears my head and makes me feel calm.</div>
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5. My pets. I have too many, leftover from a few years of rescue, but I love them and I treasure every moment of their little lives. They bring me joy and I think through them I have developed a healthy compassion for everything that lives on this planet. Everything deserves love. </div>
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6. AC. For real, I live in Baltimore City and its hot here. Even if its only in the 80's the humidity can make it unbearable. Air conditioning makes life bearable!</div>
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7. Our car! We drive a 2011 red Kia Forte 5-Door. Previous to that we drove a 1990 sea green <i>with-no-clear-coat</i> Ford Taurus. Do I need to say more? It took me ages to get my frugal husband to agree to even look at new cars and then when we sold the green monster I actually <i>cried </i>as it was towed away.</div>
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8. My iPod. I have an old 80gb iPod classic in a metallic pink case that I have been using for about 5 years now. It gets me through the gym days. I put on a playlist, close my eyes and don't stop until its over.</div>
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9. Christmas. I know it's weird but Christmas still makes me feel like a little kid. I love the lights and cold air and the music...it just lifts my spirits. Chad and I don't have any kids so we spoil my mom and my brother and each other.</div>
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10. Horror movies. I know, I know. How can those make you happy? I don't know. I just really love them...even the bad ones. I have only one exception: I hate torture porn. By that I mean movies like Saw (not including the first one which was good) and Hostel. I don't see the point, or the entertainment in realistic torture and pain. <br />
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Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions! Take time to get to know someone new this week, leave a few comments and come back and link up in the comments. Happy Monday, friends!</div>
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Monday, July 29, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 cup(s) cherries</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 Alex smoothie</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">6</span></b></div>
</center>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">6</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 sandwich(es) Classics chargrilled chicken sandwich</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">7</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 packet(s) Dressings & Sauces honey roasted bbq sauce</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 cup(s) Side Items medium fresh fruit cup</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">16 small Caramel Mocha Iced Coffee</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">12</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 cup(s) cooked green beans</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 cup(s) mashed potatoes</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">6</span></b></div>
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<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Pork Chops and Apple Pie Filling</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">19</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) Aldi Cracker Crisps</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
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<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">40</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">27</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">20 min Weight lifting, nautilus-type (light workout)</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">20 min elliptical trainer, moderate intensity</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">7</span></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
</div>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-66818461169960555762013-07-29T04:32:00.001-04:002013-07-30T00:12:32.057-04:00Day 26I know I haven't posted my food yet for today or yesterday but I'm tracking. I'm just busy and kind of exhausted. We finished cleaning the house today. Certain actives drain me quicker than others and being hunched over woodwork for hours is one of them. So I'm updating from my bed again.<br />
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Weigh in day is tomorrow and so is the gym. I promise to copy paste my food tomorrow guys, goodnight!<br />
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Sunday, July 28, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 medium banana(s)</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1 cup(s) fat free skim milk</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">55 gm Wheaties Cereal</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">7</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Velveeta Shepherds Pie</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">12</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">12</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) macaroni and cheese</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) cooked white rice</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 Tbsp canned chicken gravy</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) pasta salad</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">5 oz cooked boneless, skinless chicken breast(s)</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 oz cooked pork tenderloin</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Tbsp barbecue sauce</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 Sausage, Apple and Cornbread Stuffing</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">24</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 serving(s) frosty lemon cookie</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/4 cup(s) shredded cheddar cheese</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/2 cup(s) unsweetened dill pickle(s)</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 medium fresh tomato(es)</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) new york croutons asiago</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 1/2 serving(s) Lite Buffalo Ranch 2tbsp</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">78 gm avocado</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">3</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">1/2 cup(s) uncooked bell pepper(s)</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 cup(s) fresh spinach</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 1/3 serving(s) Aldi Cracker Crisps</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 tbsp Hormel Bacon Bits</span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 cup Campbell's Soup</span></span></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">5</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">25</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">68</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="font-size: 12px;"><i><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">No entries for activity.</span></i></td><td style="font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;"> </span></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b>0</b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
Scarlet Simplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10691018589978990577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2779148918176002629.post-55253887815783724482013-07-28T06:02:00.001-04:002013-07-30T00:10:54.664-04:00Day 25Today was cleaning day and we have cleaned. Oh boy have we ever. Do you know cleaning woodwork feels like working out? Oh well, it does to me! We aren't done yet but we've just finished for the night and the while house feels so much better!<br />
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I've had a shower and I'm laying in bed. I'll copy paste my food from my tracker tomorrow. It want great today. I mean, my points are fine but there weren't enough fruits and veggies.<br />
<br />
Ah well, tomorrow.<br />
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<b style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Saturday, July 27, 2013</span></b><br />
<table border="1" bordercolor="#dddddd" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; width: 412px;"><tbody>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Morning</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Small Plates Pork Egg Rolls</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">9</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 serving(s) Caramel Chicken Stock velvetted</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">18</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span class="value-ff-left" style="background-color: black; background-image: url(http://aka.weightwatchers.com/images/1033/css/icons/Powerfoods_icon-bg.gif); background-position: 100% 50%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; float: none; padding-right: 15px;"><span style="color: red;">2 serving(s) Diner Select Sides Brown Rice</span></span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ff-right" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">13</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">40</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Midday</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><i><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">No entries for this meal time.</span></i></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;"> </span></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Evening</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2 Velveeta Shepherds Pie</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">24</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">24</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Anytime</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/4 serving(s) delish orange and almond</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1/3 serving(s) delish lemon and black pepper</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-b" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">2</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">1 container Muller Yogurt</span></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><center>
<div class="value-ffnon" style="color: #505050; float: none; font-size: 1em;">
<b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">4</span></b></div>
</center>
</td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Subtotal</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">8</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values total used</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">72</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Food <i>PointsPlus</i> values remaining</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Left" colspan="2" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity</span></b></td></tr>
<tr><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><i><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">No entries for activity.</span></i></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;"> </span></td></tr>
<tr><td align="Right" style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b class="boldgray"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">Activity <i>PointsPlus</i> values earned</span></b></td><td style="color: #333333; font-size: 12px;"><b><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">0</span></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
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