Day 113

I am updating early tonight because I am not feeling well. I know, its really hard for me to believe too. I'm taking it easy and trying to continue eating right. I have a sore throat and glands, stuffed sore ears and a sinus head ache. I'm really hoping that this is everything leaving my body or perhaps the momentary hanging on of whats left. I really want it GONE for good now. Its frustrating and morale sapping!

Today (so far):
4/5 serving of chili mac: 3
1 serving cheese: 2
1 chocolate: 2
1 serving spaghetti: 5
2 servings sauce: 5
1 bag frozen veggies: 3
1 can mandarin oranges: 2
black bean sauce: 2
1 yogurt: 2
Total for the Day: 26

Day 112

Today was a very busy day. No gym time, but it was only cardio today. My moms car broke down a few days ago and I have been playing taxi service since then. Today her car was ready but I had to drive over an hour in both directions to get it and this was after the errands that needed to be ran anyway. Otherwise it was a pretty okay day. My husband's birthday is tomorrow, and usually I get him some sort of gigantic themed cake and ice cream. This year we are both trying to make better choices, but I didn't want him to miss out so I bought him the most decadent cupcake I could find. I might also buy him one of those mini cups of ben and jerrys that look like the big pints, but are really tiny. All of the indulgence without all of the added inches to his thighs. I am excited about it actually, I think he will appreciate it.

I'm excited about New Years Eve. We have some friends coming over (possibly) and we are getting some normally pretty off limits (money and calorie cost) food and watching movies and playing games.

Tomorrow is a circuit day at the gym, I cant miss it.

Today:
Cup french onion soup: 5
1 apple: 1
1 medium sized salad: 5
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1/2 serving nutella: 2
1 serving apple butter: 1
1/2 bag popcorn: 2
1 chocolate: 2
1 serving ww chili mac: 4
1 slice cheese: 1
"coffee" out with the girls:
2 cups hot chocolate: 6
nachos (split between 3 people): 13
Total for the Day: 43/43

Not bad. I am feeling a little back under the weather so to speak tonight. My throat is sore and my head feels groggy. I am praying that I'm not still sick, or sick again.

Day 111

I did really well today I think. I made it to the gym, stayed within my points and have made it to midnight (now) without going to bed. I made it to the gym! I needed to repeat that. I could only do about 2/3rds of my whole workout. Usually I do an hour on the treadmill, and 3 to 4 sets on each weight machine. Today I did almost a half hour on the treadmill and 2 sets on all of my weight machines. I just feel really weak, like I have had all of my strength drained away. I felt okay this morning, but as the day wore on I found myself nodding off, and by the time I got to the gym I was developing a head ache. I did it though, and tomorrow I will go and do my bit of cardio and then Wednesday I will go and do the circuit. I will just keep going until I am back where I was a month ago.

The only bad thing (not really bad either, choices choices...) I did today was go to lunch with my brother. I traded in my french fries for a baked potato, but still had the chicken sandwich. I'm in a chaotic emotional place (it would be a lot to explain) right now. I'm dealing through it, but I still feel the need for comfort, and I'm fighting the want to turn to food. That is its own little emotional battle.

I am going to try and remember to take measurements tonight as I missed then earlier this month.

Today:
1/3 order nachos: 6
1/2 roll : 1
5 oz chicken breast: 5
1 crab cake: 2
1 small baked potato: 3
1 serving ranch: 3
2 servings monteray jack: 6
1 can soup: 3
1 serving cheese: 2
1 serving cheddar rice crisps: 2
1/2 yogurt: 1
1 serving spaghetti: 4
1 serving sauce w meat: 3
1 chocolate (again, yep.): 2
Total for the Day: 43/43

I made it! I might use some extra points later. I'm trying to save most of them for New Year's Eve. Chad and I are going to veg out at home with some Indian take out. Okay, to explain the chocolate: My husband bought me a box of chocolates for Christmas. Not a huge box or anything, but yeah. I had given him the day off on Christmas, and even though I hadn't wanted to take one originally, I did in the end because I really needed the break. Now I have this half box of very nice chocolates in my fridge. I got rid of everything else, not these. I am going to eat one every day until they are gone. Just one though. I do believe myself control is getting a lot better, I just need to get back into the habit of making the right choices all throughout my day.

Day 110

Okay! Finally! Sorry about not being here guys. I just needed some time. I was stressing so much over everything and I had so much to do. I just wasn't getting better. So I gave myself some room on Christmas, especially since I wasn't well enough to cook the whole meal myself, and I just tried to relax. Today I am kind of tired and my sleep schedule is off...but I feel so much better. I even made it to my meeting this morning, so I have official totals! Of course scales were off, but not too badly honestly. My scale at home said 361.6 a week ago, and the scale at weight watchers this morning said 363.6 which brings my total lost for the weeks missed to 10 lbs exactly, and my total so far to: 54.2 lbs! I'm pretty happy. That total alone feels like pure motivation. I can do this, I didn't give up because of a holiday or being sick. I'm sure my performance would have been better without both of those factors, but I am still moving in the right direction. Tomorrow I am making a commitment to go back to the gym. I am going to have to start out a little slower and make my way back to where I was, but I have waited long enough I think.

Also I made it to my January 1st goal of 25lbs lost! On that day I weighed 390.4 and since then I have lost 26.8lbs. My next goal is to lose another 25lbs by February 28th 2010 (9 more weigh ins)! This would bring my total lost to 79.2lbs and my weight would be 338.6. I'm stoked! I have another goal also. I want to get back below 345 which is the lowest weight I can remember seeing on the scale in the last (over) 10 years. I saw this number when I was low carbing it, and while it is less than I weigh right now, I have currently lost more weight than I ever have before on any diet.

Now this is Sunday's post, and it is very early, but I wanted to get everything straight. I may have more to say later.

Today:
1 cup cooked oatmeal: 2
1/2 cup blueberries: 1
1 can soup: 3
2 slices cheese: 2
1 serving cheddar rice crisps: 2
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1 serving mustard: 1
1 serving pickles: 0
1 serving turkey breast: 3
1 slice cheese: 1
1 piece chocolate (yep.): 2
1 whole sub from subway (out shopping, needed to get my points in, in a healthy way as my sleep schedule is off and bed time is now between 11 and 1 for me as opposed to 3 and 4am as it should be): 10
w cheese: 2
w lite mayo: 2
1 serving sunchips: 4
1 fiber one yogurt: 1
Total for the Day: 37/43

Eek. 6 points leftover. I will get back in the habit of making it to my points. I threw myself off when I wasn't able to make it to my points total while sick. On the plus side, my tummy seems to be back in order.

Day 109

Saturday. The last day of make up!

Day 108

Friday! Merry Christmas! Still playing catch up!

Day 107

Thursday. Playing catch up!