Day 208, 209, 210

Easter weekend was a lot of fun, and busy. Sorry for the two missing posts! A recap of the weekend:

The bachelorette party was fun, but not really my thing. The food was pretty easy to calculate, but not really good enough to tempt me to the line.

Easter is a different story though. I was given a basket, the majority of which I have already packed up in baggies to go to neighborhood children, but some of which I ate...on Sunday. I want very badly to dwell in the copious amount of stupid that decision stirred up but that doesn't get me anywhere, and I end up in a downward spiral. Still learning? Oh yes! I have to give myself a little positive here though. A year ago I'd have devoured that whole basket in a less than two days. I didn't do enough damage to go over my weekly points and if I did, I had a whopping 30+ exercise points waiting in the wings. I know I don't talk about exercise points, but that is only because I never ever use them. Its only Monday and I already have 11 from today for the week. I guess I'm not against using them if I need to, but I don't want to need to if you know what I mean.

My food for Saturday and Sunday was not great, but I managed to get in most of my veggies on Saturday, Sunday I'm not so sure of.

Spring Challenge Check in!

My goals are:
1. Exercise 1 hour a day 5 days a week for 13 weeks.
2. Eat the WW recommended servings of fruits and vegetables every day.
3. Go to as many WW meetings as I possibly can.
4. Check in on Mondays.
5. Get a bike. Finally.

1. This week was much better than last week. I did 4 out of the 5 days required, but I also stepped my workout back up.
2. Same as above, I'm actually surprised at how well I did with that part. Except Sunday I was pretty right on ever day. I was 2 servings short on Saturday. I am finding that counting the servings of veggies leads me to eat more of them to make sure I get to the total needed for the challenge. It has been motivating!
3. There was no meeting, as I said before, my meetings are on Sunday and that was Easter.
4. Totally checking in right now!
5. 12 weeks from now...

Now something I like about myself. I think that this part is actually going to be one of the hardest of the challenge. I am getting off to what feels like a pretty rocky start here. I stumbled hard a couple of weeks ago and I am still trying to get my feet back under me. I always feel embarrased by my mistakes like someone is going to read this and judge me in some way. I think that everyone makes mistakes, and I know I'm not alone, but it feels very different when you are standing there in the mirror going over your week. So the thing that I like about myself for this week? I'm very introspective. I can (most of the time) get to the bottom of an issue that I am having and solve my problem. I'm rational enough because of that to pick up the pieces after a meltdown. I'm also quite self aware (inside) and I'm conscious of my feelings and emotions. Now managing all of that... ha. I think this is something I got from my mother and my grandfather, who both share that trait. I think that fits the mood of this blog right now! My goodness Ruby, pick yourself up already!

So I am posting the food log for today (Day 210), but I do have the logs for the 2 missed days. If anyone would like to see them I will post them!

Today:
1 veg burger: 2
1 arnolds sand: 1
2 cups steamed mixed veggies (corn incl): 5
1 serving cheese: 2
2 serving salsa: 1
1 serving rice crisps: 2
1 veg burger: 2
1 arnolds san: 1
1 yogurt: 2
3 1/2 oz roasted pork loin: 4
1 cup toasted almond rice pilaf: 6
1 cup steamed mixed veggies: 0
1/2 serving nutella: 3
1 serving jam: 1
1 sand thin: 1
1 serving ice cream: 2
35/41

Oh! I also went again to the gym today. I am consistantly doing an hour on the treadmill at 40-45 resistance. I've been increasing it a little when I feel comfortable. All of the calorie calculators tell me that every time I do an hour I am burning over a thousand calories. It also looks like I burn almost 500 calories on my circuit. I think thats amazing. Now to get it up to 5 days a week!

Day 207

This is going to be short!

Today was hectic. I ended up going grocery shopping at the last minute today because I realized that everything would be closed on Sunday! I would have taken the car Monday but its hard for me to take the car on week days and I already had it today because of some other circumstances. I couldn't do it tomorrow because I have a bachelorette party to attend tomorrow night.

So it has been a long day. I think my food was okay today. I made it to 6 servings of veggies today despite being out of the house for 9 hours and then having a dinner date at a friends house.

Wish me luck for tomorrow, this bachelorette thing is at a bull roast for charity, Every celebration in our lives is centered around food!

Today:
1 baked potato with cheese: 7
1 small chili: 4
1/2 sub from subway: 5
1 serving sun chips: 4
1 serving rice: 4
1 cup sugar snap peas: 1
1 tbsp spicy sauce: 1
1 buffalo chicken baked potato (home made dinner at friends house WW friendly): 5
1 serving broccoli w/cheese: 2
1 serving baked lays: 5
38/41

Day 206

I feel so great today! I laid my line down last night and today I have been sticking to it. I also feel great because today was a cardio only day and I still did 60 minutes on the elliptical without the hour break for weight training in the middle! It was so very hard. I actually think that I desperately need new shoes. My feet were really hurting today on the machine and my toes we sore. My food was great, if a little boring, and tonight was karaoke which went was a lot of fun. I also managed to cut my soda down tonight. I usually drink a lot of soda on Thursday nights because I feel bad just sitting there at the bar drinking water all night. Tonight I had 2 sodas packed with ice.

I don't think that there will be a meeting on Sunday because of the holiday but I am going to check it out anyway. Does anyone else have any plans for Easter? Church, dinner and a movie, or even the gym? I know everyone here is trying to lose weight, but do any of you still make baskets or receive them?

Now this is funny. It has been a really good day and I don't have anything to say!

Today:
1 serving bran flakes: 2
1/2 cup milk: 1
1/2 yogurt: 1
1 serving stew: 4
1 chicken sandwich: 5
1 serving mustard: 2
1 medium salad: 1 (for cheese that came in it)
1 serving ff honey mustard dressing: 1
1 serving rice: 4
1 cup sugar snap peas: 1
1 serving (homemade ww this time!)
orange chicken: 4
5 hours later (after karaoke):
1 serving rice: 4
1 cup sugar snap peas: 1
1 serving homemade ww orange chicken: 4
1 yogurt: 2
37/41

And its after 2am, so my points are going to stay 4 short. Not bad though. I did manage again to get all of my veggies in. I have decided that I need to get into eating a salad every day. They are the great destroyer of vegetable deficits!

Day 112

Today was a very busy day. No gym time, but it was only cardio today. My moms car broke down a few days ago and I have been playing taxi service since then. Today her car was ready but I had to drive over an hour in both directions to get it and this was after the errands that needed to be ran anyway. Otherwise it was a pretty okay day. My husband's birthday is tomorrow, and usually I get him some sort of gigantic themed cake and ice cream. This year we are both trying to make better choices, but I didn't want him to miss out so I bought him the most decadent cupcake I could find. I might also buy him one of those mini cups of ben and jerrys that look like the big pints, but are really tiny. All of the indulgence without all of the added inches to his thighs. I am excited about it actually, I think he will appreciate it.

I'm excited about New Years Eve. We have some friends coming over (possibly) and we are getting some normally pretty off limits (money and calorie cost) food and watching movies and playing games.

Tomorrow is a circuit day at the gym, I cant miss it.

Today:
Cup french onion soup: 5
1 apple: 1
1 medium sized salad: 5
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1/2 serving nutella: 2
1 serving apple butter: 1
1/2 bag popcorn: 2
1 chocolate: 2
1 serving ww chili mac: 4
1 slice cheese: 1
"coffee" out with the girls:
2 cups hot chocolate: 6
nachos (split between 3 people): 13
Total for the Day: 43/43

Not bad. I am feeling a little back under the weather so to speak tonight. My throat is sore and my head feels groggy. I am praying that I'm not still sick, or sick again.

Day 111

I did really well today I think. I made it to the gym, stayed within my points and have made it to midnight (now) without going to bed. I made it to the gym! I needed to repeat that. I could only do about 2/3rds of my whole workout. Usually I do an hour on the treadmill, and 3 to 4 sets on each weight machine. Today I did almost a half hour on the treadmill and 2 sets on all of my weight machines. I just feel really weak, like I have had all of my strength drained away. I felt okay this morning, but as the day wore on I found myself nodding off, and by the time I got to the gym I was developing a head ache. I did it though, and tomorrow I will go and do my bit of cardio and then Wednesday I will go and do the circuit. I will just keep going until I am back where I was a month ago.

The only bad thing (not really bad either, choices choices...) I did today was go to lunch with my brother. I traded in my french fries for a baked potato, but still had the chicken sandwich. I'm in a chaotic emotional place (it would be a lot to explain) right now. I'm dealing through it, but I still feel the need for comfort, and I'm fighting the want to turn to food. That is its own little emotional battle.

I am going to try and remember to take measurements tonight as I missed then earlier this month.

Today:
1/3 order nachos: 6
1/2 roll : 1
5 oz chicken breast: 5
1 crab cake: 2
1 small baked potato: 3
1 serving ranch: 3
2 servings monteray jack: 6
1 can soup: 3
1 serving cheese: 2
1 serving cheddar rice crisps: 2
1/2 yogurt: 1
1 serving spaghetti: 4
1 serving sauce w meat: 3
1 chocolate (again, yep.): 2
Total for the Day: 43/43

I made it! I might use some extra points later. I'm trying to save most of them for New Year's Eve. Chad and I are going to veg out at home with some Indian take out. Okay, to explain the chocolate: My husband bought me a box of chocolates for Christmas. Not a huge box or anything, but yeah. I had given him the day off on Christmas, and even though I hadn't wanted to take one originally, I did in the end because I really needed the break. Now I have this half box of very nice chocolates in my fridge. I got rid of everything else, not these. I am going to eat one every day until they are gone. Just one though. I do believe myself control is getting a lot better, I just need to get back into the habit of making the right choices all throughout my day.

Day 110

Okay! Finally! Sorry about not being here guys. I just needed some time. I was stressing so much over everything and I had so much to do. I just wasn't getting better. So I gave myself some room on Christmas, especially since I wasn't well enough to cook the whole meal myself, and I just tried to relax. Today I am kind of tired and my sleep schedule is off...but I feel so much better. I even made it to my meeting this morning, so I have official totals! Of course scales were off, but not too badly honestly. My scale at home said 361.6 a week ago, and the scale at weight watchers this morning said 363.6 which brings my total lost for the weeks missed to 10 lbs exactly, and my total so far to: 54.2 lbs! I'm pretty happy. That total alone feels like pure motivation. I can do this, I didn't give up because of a holiday or being sick. I'm sure my performance would have been better without both of those factors, but I am still moving in the right direction. Tomorrow I am making a commitment to go back to the gym. I am going to have to start out a little slower and make my way back to where I was, but I have waited long enough I think.

Also I made it to my January 1st goal of 25lbs lost! On that day I weighed 390.4 and since then I have lost 26.8lbs. My next goal is to lose another 25lbs by February 28th 2010 (9 more weigh ins)! This would bring my total lost to 79.2lbs and my weight would be 338.6. I'm stoked! I have another goal also. I want to get back below 345 which is the lowest weight I can remember seeing on the scale in the last (over) 10 years. I saw this number when I was low carbing it, and while it is less than I weigh right now, I have currently lost more weight than I ever have before on any diet.

Now this is Sunday's post, and it is very early, but I wanted to get everything straight. I may have more to say later.

Today:
1 cup cooked oatmeal: 2
1/2 cup blueberries: 1
1 can soup: 3
2 slices cheese: 2
1 serving cheddar rice crisps: 2
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1 serving mustard: 1
1 serving pickles: 0
1 serving turkey breast: 3
1 slice cheese: 1
1 piece chocolate (yep.): 2
1 whole sub from subway (out shopping, needed to get my points in, in a healthy way as my sleep schedule is off and bed time is now between 11 and 1 for me as opposed to 3 and 4am as it should be): 10
w cheese: 2
w lite mayo: 2
1 serving sunchips: 4
1 fiber one yogurt: 1
Total for the Day: 37/43

Eek. 6 points leftover. I will get back in the habit of making it to my points. I threw myself off when I wasn't able to make it to my points total while sick. On the plus side, my tummy seems to be back in order.

Day 109

Saturday. The last day of make up!

Day 108

Friday! Merry Christmas! Still playing catch up!

Day 107

Thursday. Playing catch up!

Day 101

Alrighty! I am still here and still sick. I no longer have a fever, but my cough is pretty bad, and worse yet my stomach is still pretty bad. My biggest worry right now is that I'm not eating enough, but I think I have been trying pretty hard recently, and getting pretty close. Also, with baby sitting and all of the Christmas shopping plus grocery shopping I have to do this weekend and my roommate being sick I wont be getting much more down time this week.

I think that I am well enough to do these things, and I really hope it doesn't backfire on me. Next week is Christmas and I have so much to do! I love it, but I cant help being stressed, and that on top of being sick is kinda too much. This week also brings many stresses. I have to cook for a Christmas eve party, and then I am also cooking on Christmas day at my Mothers house. I have a pretty good plan set in place for all of that, but things happen. I keep gaining guests there so I will inevitably have to change the menu up a bit. What I was doing was healthy, but expensive. I'll be okay.

Today:
1 bowl size serving of chicken enchilada soup: 10
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1 egg: 2
1 slice cheese: 1
1 serving spaghetti w sauce: 7
1 (2nd) serving spaghetti with sauce: 8
w cheese: 3
1 serving ice cream: 3
Total for the Day 35/43
Leftover: 8

Its after I usually stop eating but I might ask my husband to make me a can of soup to fill out the rest of those points for tonight. I'm feeling hunger for once, and still trying to gt my system back into the groove...

Day 92

Today was a total bust. I was busy all day today until 5 or 6 and I got very little done while I was gone and so need to go back and do what I was doing yesterday all day tomorrow while getting ready for a party. By the time I finally got around to exercising it was sleeting outside, so no to that. I am going to do a video before bed and not beat myself up about it. I am going to try for the next few weeks to try not to let my expectations of myself get me all worked up. The fact of the matter is that I am in fact losing weight, and while I really do need to exercise I also need to take care of myself physically and mentally.

Oh the bright side I think I am going to try jogging. Wait. Don't yell at me yet. I dont mean full out running and I am not trying to hurt or punish myself or anything. I am pushing myself. I want to try interval jogging. Like 5 to 10 minutes of walking to warm up and a minute or two of jogging to start, rinse and repeat. I haven't jogged in years, but I actually feel capable right now. I catch myself every now and then jogging in the store or to the car. Nothing extravagant, but I think I am ready to try. Not on the treadmill though. Don't worry though, I'll be careful.

Since I have to take the car tomorrow anyway (we have been trying to go really easy on her since she was fixed so I haven't had access to her for a while) I am determined to go to the gym by myself. I can go through a circuit and some cardio and then maybe the day after it wont be so hard to get myself motivated. I really need to get back into the habit.

Also, off topic completely, can I just say that I love this season so very much!

Today:
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1/2 serving nutella: 2
1 serving jam: 1
3 pieces gyoza: 3
Sushi: 15
1 can soup: 3
2 slices cheese: 2
1 serving cheddar rice cakes: 2
1 banana: 2
1 ww yogurt: 1
1 serving white chicken chili: 7
1 cup ice cream: 5
1 bag popcorn: 5
Total for the Day: 44/44 and 5/35

Day 87

Wow, I am posting so early tonight. It might be because I finally feel better. You know what cured me? I walked 2.5 miles at the track tonight. I felt so much better when it was over even though it was a tough walk. The treadmill is so much easier than a real walk. However, all of the work I have done on the treadmill has given me so much. I couldn't walk a single mile on the track before I started using the treadmill regularly. My stamina has increased a whole lot. So, don't think that I don't respect that machine, because I seriously seriously do. Anyway, 2.5 miles and less depression! The only issue that I am having today is that suddenly after dinner I am having a tummy ache! I'm only at 28 points, but I cant really imagine getting anything in right now. So I'm going to take some pepto and wait a bit. Maybe I'll have a nutella and jam sandwich before bed.

So I have some events coming up where food is going to be openly available. I am co-hosting a party with a friend, and so I get to make some of the food available. I was thinking of making the meatballs that I made a while back. They end up making a pretty nice appetizer. The second event is a Christmas baking event. I'm not terribly worried about that as I don't particularly love cookies (I'll be making truffles. I am still looking for a recipe). Then we get to Christmas. I found a recipe for cranberry orange glazed ham on the WW web site. I could serve that with baked yams and a light green bean casserole. That way, no one would really feel like they were missing anything, and I wouldn't have to worry about not knowing the points of everything I am going to be eating. Dessert for me (at least) is going to be light homemade pumpkin pie. I'm excited. My family is very supportive and they know that I am going to be cooking "light" for dinner that night. I just want to make them happy.

I don't really fear pit falls anymore. I'm not afraid that I will make bad choices and more importantly I know that if I do make one or two less healthy choices that they can be overcome, and don't necessarily mean a gain that week. Life doesn't change just because I want it to, and honestly I need to realize that. There will always be something that I probably shouldn't eat. I can't force my eating habits on the world. So I will just have to stay strong.

All of you are so amazing in your journeys. Your honestly, you losses, and even your gains are inspiring. I look forward to reading your words even when I don't comment. Thank you all so much for supporting me.

Today:
4oz chicken breast: 4
1 serving steamed veggies: 0
1 serving light honey mustard: 1
1 can soup: 3
1 slice cheese: 1
1 serving cheddar rice cakes: 2
1 yogurt: 2
Spinach: 0
1 serving pickles: 0
1 serving salad top: 1
1 serving light ranch: 2
1 serving light cheese: 1
1 banana: 2
1 cup chinese pineapple chicken: 5
1 cup rice: 4
1 cup steamed broccoli: 0
1 cup (3 hours later) chinese p. chicken: 5
1 cup rice: 4
popcorn: 5
1 ww mini bar: 1
Total for the Day: 43/44

I cured my slump!

Day 82

Today was a slow and relaxing day for the most part. I feel more relaxed than I did a few days ago. I am looking forward to Christmas actually. I like the distraction. Its an automatic reason to be joyful and thankful and even excited. Yes, Christmas still excites me even as an adult. I'm hoping to handle Christmas the same way that I handled Thanksgiving. I'm going to have a great time and enjoy the traditions (food, presents etc) but not lose sight of my ultimate goals. I also don't want to put myself in a bad position mentally. I want to come through the rest of the Holidays guilt free. I will be cooking the whole meal on Christmas day, unlike Thanksgiving. I am going to try and plan out a Weight Watchers friendly meal, and dessert, while also trying to stay traditional to keep my family happy. I don't think they will know the difference honestly. Maybe I'll post some of my ideas here this week for some feedback.

My husband has asked about being allowed to have candy on Christmas this year. I told him that it wouldn't bother me. You have to understand how good he has been to understand my reasoning. Since we have gone on Weight Watchers he has stayed on plan, and never fallen off. Before weight watchers he ate candy every single day. That is not an exaggeration. Every night he brought home starburst or sour patch kids or something equally sugary. He honestly just loves candy, so does his father for that matter, Since we started counting points he hasn't binged on candy or asked for any, or complained about not having any. I really only like specific candy and so I don't feel that his having some on Christmas is going to affect me, and I trust him when he says just for the day. His journey is his own after all and he seems to be succeeding.

I wonder if there will ever be a day when my instincts switch over to eating just enough to be satisfied. Will there ever be a day when I can bring home a cheesecake and have just a slice, or none at all? Will I ever be able to go into a chinese food buffet and not over do it? More importantly will I ever accomplish these feats without thinking about it constantly? I certainly hope so. That will be one of the single most freeing days of my life I think.

Back to the gym Monday. Same goals as the week before last! Going for another 4 lbs! Also, my weigh in is tomorrow. I would be lying if I said I didn't hope to lose weight with all of my heart and soul, and I would be lying if I said I gave it my all this past week. I've been distracted and busy. Thus is the journey. I have a feeling if it was really easy it might not be worth doing, even though that sounds kinda funny. While my weight loss might not make a great showing I still feel as though the work I am doing on myself inside is making a major difference. I know that I am doing well, and will be trying to keep that in the front of my mind all day tomorrow. I would be pleased as punch to have just maintained tomorrow morning. Wish me luck!

Today:
Large (rather huge) salad: 6
3 tbsp light ranch: 3
1 can soup: 3
2 servings cheddar rice cakes: 5
1 serving cheese: 3
1 bowl of baked potato soup: 12
1 cup ice cream: 6
2 bites of second salad: 2
Total for the Day: 40/44
Leftover: 4

Day 81

This is going to be long and a little disorganized.

Yesterday was wonderful, but oh so long. I did go over my daily points, but I planned for that (or rather expected to) and had all of my weekly points to spare. Today was not so great. I didn't get a chance to eat until around 5pm and that ended up being a yogurt. I took care of my points later, but I didn't really binge on them which is also a step in the correct direction.

I'm pretty proud of myself for yesterday. I didn't kill myself over it, but I kept my diet and my points in mind all day. I also busted my butt all day yesterday and the day before, so honestly even without a gym I know I was burning calories. Today I am still completely exhausted and moody (which happens when I'm overtired.). We are pretty much out of groceries here because I manged to bring nothing home from Thanksgiving! I am pretty excited about that. I was able for once to just let it all go. It didn't matter more to me than feeling better for once in my life. This week has been crazy, and I'm sure I wont make a great showing (or any showing maybe) on Sunday when I get on that scale, but as of right now I have defeated Thanksgiving. I'm past the hump and still on parade. I managed to indulge and not crash my marching band into a tar pit. However, that still means we have no real food here. My husband (who is currently stringing lights onto a Christmas tree) took me out to dinner tonight for sushi. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get around to surveying the cupboards and making a grocery list.

I don't know how many of you (out of anyone who reads or ever will read this) feel like you can't get a hold on your diet or lifestyle change after something like Thanksgiving, but I'm sure there are a few of you. I'm saying this as much for myself as any of you: First, breathe. When that's done, eat something healthy. Go for a walk, and if you cant, then do some sit down exercises. A lot of times actions help me to reinforce or even change my thought patterns. If I am feeling low and I want to quit or I feel completely miserable I go to the gym. Even if I didn't want to go I feel better coming out. I feel like I get an inch ahead of the game. The feeling is like catching up on all of your missed homework. It's relief. So breathe, think, do, and forgive yourself. It was one day, and no matter how badly you did you will be okay. Dont let it change your coarse. I cant let it change mine.

I have also in the last few days found that people can not stand it when you refuse food. I do not know how many times I was asked about taking pie or cake or whatever home. I say "I cant eat that" and people get all uptight when you tell them you are on a diet. They roll their eyes and click their tongues in that "knowing" way. It isn't one day anymore when I take the day home to enjoy tomorrow! I'm not perfect. I made 5 cheesecake for the big feast and didn't bring a single slice home. I make good cheesecake. So good in fact that I might have found myself going at it in front of the tv at 2am with a spoon in a fit of boredom or discontentment or whatever! Perhaps someday I will be able to tackle that monster, but as I have said before: I know myself. Even if I could (and I probably could too) exercise complete self control, I don't want to be tempted. There is enough in everyday normal life for me to wrestle with here. Physically and emotionally. I just do not love food more than myself anymore. It isn't my coping mechanism, and it certainly doesn't make me feel better. I refused something on Wednesday before Thanksgiving while cooking with friends who know I am on a diet. They of course asked why, and I told them that it was too many points. One of them responded quite irritatedly with "And you are going to eat like 4 million points tomorrow so just shut up and enjoy it." Yeah, I get it. No one wants to count points on a Holiday. No one wants to be reminded that what they are eating is too much or bad for them or anything. I get it. So then stop asking why! I didn't go from table to table making sure everyone wasn't overeating, but do you know how many people came to make sure I was? It was infuriating. I know they mean well. They want me to have a good time too, and I guess they also associate food with general enjoyment. It comes down to more than the moment for me. I know that if I totally blow one day no matter how prepared I make myself to just let it go, that I cant. I'll analyze it and agonize over it and beat myself up.

2 years from now, I want to be healthy. I want to be in a size 12-14 and on my way to doing all of the things I have never been able to do before. I want to be fit enough to give birth, ride a roller coaster and dance (I'll be brave enough to learn then!) with my husband until dawn. When I am 70 years old, I want to be able to walk through the grocery store. I want to be able to sit on my front porch with Chad. I just want to be able.

Then I'll take some cheesecake home. I promise.

Today:
1 yogurt: 2
Sushi: 15
3 pieces gyoza: 3
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1 veggie burger: 2
1 slice light pie: 5
1 serving dip: 6
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 2
1 bagel: 2
1 veggie burger: 3
1 serving icecream: 3
Total for the Day: 44/44

Day 80

Today was actually easier than I thought it would be. By the time dinner rolled around I had been smelling food and cooking for so long that I wasn't hungry. I have been up since 7 AM and I will total my points tomorrow.

I hope that you all had a successful Thanksgiving.

Food update to come tomorrow.

Day 79

So I just finished prepping the stuff I am cooking tomorrow, and cooking what I could today. It is now 3am, and I have to be at the hall we rented by 8am. As such this is going to be the shortest post ever. I did not make it to my points total today, but I'm not terribly worried about it. I have been making it most every day these days.

I will update tomorrow even though it is a Holiday, but it will be pretty late.

Today:
1 arnolds sandwich thin: 1
1 veggie burger: 2
1 ww yogurt: 1
bites Alex's lunch: 1
1 bag light popcorn: 5
1 grilled chicken sandwich: 7
1 serving bbq: 1
1 baked potato w/ cheese: 6
1 small chili: 4
Total for the Day: 28/44
Leftover: 16

Day 78

And so it begins. The Holiday countdown and complete chaos. I did not make it to the gym today, but I was seriously on my feet and walking from 1 this afternoon until just after 1am when I walked through my front door. This is the first day since I started feeling better physically that I actually hurt. My feet and my legs and my lower back. UGH. I don't know if the gym is an option tomorrow since I am cooking pretty much from when I get up until very late. I'm hoping that I can get most of everything done by 7pm and go anyway. Today I don't feel any shame though. I have been moving, all day. I do miss the strength training though.

Today was a really long day and so this is short, and sweet and to the point. I'm still with this, and I plan to stay. Thanksgiving is Thursday and its going to be a test, but I think I can pass. Even if I mess up a little the journey moves on, and I cant quit. I've come too far.

Today:
1 serving jambalaya: 7
1 yogurt: 1
samples in Sams Club: 4
Spinach: 0
pickles: 0
1/8th cup chick peas: 1
1 serving ranch: 2
1/2 egg: 1
1 serving salad topper: 1
1 turkey wing: 5
1 can soup: 3
1 ww mini bar: 1
1 1/2 serving light kung pao chicken: 16
2 cups steamed green beans: 0
Total for the Day: 42/44