I found myself dreading making an entry last night. I didn't fall off the wagon or anything but I just had nothing to say. Do you ever have days like that?
Then right before bed I had a tiny little itsy bitsy emotional melt down to my husband who comforted me and told me that I give up to much of what I want for what other people want all of the time and that I end up feeling resentful later. I do feel a little resentful about some things that are going on in my life and I have to admit that they and that feeling of resentment are competing to see which one I let kick me off the wagon first. I say "I let" because honestly I feel like I cant fall off of the wagon. I can have bad days and bad moments or meals but no one falls off, I think we jump. I'm not jumping. I'm going to roll with the punches this time. If it takes me the rest of my life to lose this weight so be it. We don't fail unless we decide to stop trying right?
One thing I am really excited about (like I am every Saturday night before bed)? The gym tomorrow. It always ramps up my enthusiasm and commitment as well as stripping off some of the tension and stress of everything.
I think I am also going to start recording my food here again too. I think I'm more honest with myself that way.
Good night guys!
1 year ago