Day 215

Today was grocery day and it was a long one. I left the house at 1pm and got home about an hour ago! I did well despite that though. We did have lunch out as usual, but we went to a sit down place where the food was much easier to discern.

I have my weigh in tomorrow and I'm worried. I had a really good week this week, a really good week. However the two weeks before this one were quite honestly questionable. Like I said a while ago in another post, my heart wasn't in it for a bit. I stumbled a bit and had a hard time getting back up. Thankfully I hadn't lost my mind and was able to keep my damage to a minimum. Now though I'm feeling a little nervous. My last weigh in was 340.8 and I know it fluctuated a bit in the last two weeks, but I also know I now have it firmly under control. I am not worried about a gain, I'm worried about a maintain or something that amounts to as much.

I'm making this post early to be able to make time to get some activity in before I need to go to bed. I don't have too many options here tonight but I figure I could get some stronger walking in, and then some wall push ups and leg lifts. Just a boost you know?

If I sound down, it's because I am. It isn't about the diet or weight though. I have some things going on, and I do feel overwhelmed. I'm still not really sure what my problem is. I feel like ranting at the stars here.

Today:
1 serving cereal: 2
1/2 cup skim milk: 1
1 dumpling: 2
1/4th cup hot and sour soup: 0
1/2 serving shrimp toast: 3
4 oz lean shredded spicy chicken: 5
less than one oz friends chicken: 1
less than one oz friends pork: 2
2 pieces crispy beef: 4
w/ veggies: 0
1 cup rice: 4
1/2 small taro pancake: 2
1 bag broccoli slaw: 1
1 tsp olive oil: 1
1 serving black bean sauce: 1
1 cup grapes: 1
1 serving smoked turkey breast: 1
1 fruit bar: 1
32

32 is a bit low for me but remember that I ate out today and while I think it was easier to discern, there is still probably a margin of error there that I cant really guess. So it might not be so bad. I also managed to get in most of my veggies.