The Journey So Far...

The Journey So Far...

Friday, January 27, 2012

Day 12

I'm going to try and make this quick because I am exhausted.

So exhausted that I cried on the way to the gym, but we will get to that in a minute.

I had a bunch of errands to run with a friend today. Her daughter, Loey turned 1 last week and the party is this Saturday. I am making the cake that she gets to destroy all by her lonesome. I needed some stuff for that because the messier the better! Three layers, top and bottom are rainbow, and the middle layer is chocolate with the center cut out and filled with cherry pie filling. Then I am going to ice it with white icing, spray it purple and dust it with edible pink glitter. Oh yes.

I went to Weight Watchers today! I can't tell exactly what my weight is because they printed my original sticker from 2009 by accident (and I didn't notice until I got home to enter my weight online which apparently they do automatically now...), but online they entered my weight automatically at 10lbs heavier than that. So either 417.8 or 427.8. Either way I feel pretty humbled and I have to admit to feeling some shame. You have to start somewhere right? I cant give up just because I don't like where I am right now. I am doing this to get away from where I am right now. Instead of letting this dampen my motivation I would like it to light a fire under my bottom and keep me moving!

Anyway, as to why I cried on the way to the gym. Sometimes when I am really overly tired, I also get really overly emotional. I did not want to go to the gym. Seriously. I even sent a text to my gym buddy to warn her: "The only way I am going to the gym is if you make me." She didn't want to go either, but she made me and we got through the elliptical. We went, and it feels good to have gone. I was so tired though that on the way there I cried like a giant baby. I think I have been working on less than max all week even though my sleep has been okay. I got over being sick, had a great weekend away, went to the gym, hurt my ankle etc. So I am going to bed early tonight. I need/deserve it I think.

Tomorrow we are back to counting points in earnest! Good night guys!


Anonymous said...

Just remember, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step!! You're back on that journey and that is all that matters!

Rettakat said...

I have to agree with Betty Rubble. As hard as facing the beginning "numbers" is, what really counts is that you are DOING this now, and for that, you can feel proud of yourself.

I hope you get lots of restful sleep.