So upon examination I have discovered several things. 1. I have been falling back into the anti gym rut. I start feeling tired and unmotivated and then I feel so pressured and BAM...I'm doing all of the wrong things again. 2. My trainer at the gym has been "let go" in a seemingly unfair situation. 3. I am taking my butt back to the gym tomorrow come hell or high water. Honestly I need a kick in the pants. I'm feeling terribly dispassionate about everything right now. The only thing I am determined about is not quitting. I said I was going to think about things and really I have.
I'm not measuring my food as well as I was, and I wasn't tracking as well either, which meant I was forgetting things and over eating. I have a tendency to sleep too much when I start feeling this way making my days start later...so I tend to try and pack in all of my points over a shorter period of time. I am not making it to the gym enough. 4 days a week minimum is what I should be getting. This week I am only going to get 3 (Thurs, Fri, Sat) because it has taken me this long to stop feeling sorry for myself. It is definitely time to get back to basics. I need to remember the things I discovered as I was learning this diet because I have definitely fallen away from them. This is all so internal though, so I still need to get myself physically up and out of the house tomorrow. No one can do this for me, I have to do it myself. Without that, I'll never make it.
What do you guys do when you are struggling? What finally gets you going again? I feel doubt in every choice I am making right now.
So far I know I need to A) Get back to tracking, seriously. B) Measure everything. C) Make my schedule more important. I need to space my food out so that I don't have 20 points left at midnight. D) Get back to the no eating after 2 am rule. And E) Get back to moving every day.
I don't want to fail here. I am pretty sure I can't fail here. I have so much to lose (and I am not talking pounds)!
Today (so far):
1 cup bran flakes: 2
1 banana: 2
1/2 cup skim milk: 1
1 serving/ 1 oz baked chips: 3
1 serving baked ziti (vegetarian): 7
1 cup chili: 2
1 serving asian chicken and rice (frozen): 4
edited added in food:
1 serving crackers: 2
4 oz fit active pasta: 3!
1 serving chicken caccatoire: 4
2 servings low fat grated parm: 1
2 slices low calorie bread: 2
1 orange: 1
1 bag popcorn: 5
I am making a light and veggie filled chicken caccatoire for dinner over whole wheat pasta. I think tomorrows post will be a thousand times more positive. You know how I know? I always feel better once I get moving. Always.
2 years ago