The Journey So Far...

The Journey So Far...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Day 89

11 days until 100! This has been a strange day. I feel much better emotionally but I don't think I am going to do well tomorrow at weigh in. It is going to take a whole lot of will, but I am still going to go and face that scale tomorrow. Ugh, I hate feeling this way! I know that I wont lose every single week, but I can't help wanting to. I also know that gaining one week out of so many doesn't say anything about my effort or my self worth but I feel like they are so connected! Facing the scale even when I have had a good feeling week is hard. Feeling like I'm already doomed is the worst.

I'll perk up though, soon enough. I have a lot to do this month. The only day next week that I wont make it to the gym is going to be Wednesday as I am co-hosting a party. My goal for next Sunday's weigh in: 4lbs! Wish me luck for tomorrow anyway!

Today:
1 cup cooked oatmeal: 2
1/2 cup blueberries: 1
1/2 cup skim milk: 1
1 bag light popcorn: 5
1 char-grilled chicken salad from Chick-fil-a: 5
1 serving fat free honey mustard: 1
1 char-grilled chicken sandwich: 5
1/2 serving bbq sauce: 1
1/2 small peppermint chocolate chip milk shake: 8
Total for the Day: 29/44
Leftover: 15

Actually I think I made better food choices today, so that's one thing. I'm also not terribly upset about the leftover points as it doesn't happen very often anymore.

2 comments:

100in12 said...

i'm a total hypocrite for saying this (because i fall victim to caring too much about scale numbers) but a setback doesn't mean the end of things!

take it in stride. regroup and attack your next week!

even think of it as "shaking things up" - if your body is used to losing losing losing, maybe a maintenance or gain week changes things and you get a clean slate to work from!

(this is probably in no way medically correct but it kinda worked for me to get over feeling bad about a gain)

you can do it scarlet!

Deb Willbethin said...

I hate, hate, hate pre-weighin anxiety! It's almost worse than the number on the scale. Good news is that when the weigh-in is done, you can do as you've planned: move on, regroup, hit it again. Best wishes! Deb