Day 8 has been hard. I have all these doubts about my diet and my food choices. I'm afraid I wont do this right. I have been thinking about the one thing I don't like so much about the meeting. It was nice, and it was motivational...but it left me in a place of unknowing. All of these people are losing weight, and I am here with 44 points! Will I lose weight? If I really stick to those 44, but drink almost exclusively crystal light will it still count? I think I am getting better about getting my veggies in, but is that true? I still feel like I have way too many snacks! Its really hard to get 44 points in every day. I am doing it as best I can though. I'm scared to go weigh in on Sunday. Even if I get all of my gym time (Monday, Wednesday, Friday) and walk with the dogs every night, will that matter? I am so ready for this, but I feel so unsure about my actions. All of this doubt! Gah! Its leading me to a scary place. I have been thinking about this all day, and it's exhausting. I said I would just jump in and do this for a year right? I cant expect to get everything right all together at first. I'm so impatient, but the truth is hard. This is going to take time. This is going to have to be a lifestyle. You hear people say that all of the time and its true. Its about losing the weight and getting healthy and maintaining. Forever. Never ever coming back to this dark place.
What I learned in my first week:
1. To buy more vegetables. I need to buy things like bagged baby carrots that I can just reach into the fridge and get out. When I am stressed, or sad or bored, or emotional at all I dont have the patience to clean and cut up something healthy. Not having easily accesable veggies around is setting myself up for failure.
2. It's okay to say no. People wont think less of you because you didnt accept their offer to share a greasy piece of Bo' Jangles fried chicken.
2 cups cooked oatmeal w/splenda: 5pts
1 gala apple: 1pts
1/2 cup 2% milk: 2pts
1 WW Choc. Ice cream Sandwich: 2pts
Lunch: Turkey sandwich w/o cheese on a low fat/high fiber english muffin: 6pts
2 cups steamed broccoli: 1pts
3 cups spinach w/ pickles, tomato: 0pts
1 serving ranch dressing: 4pts
1 pizza bagel low fat: 7pts
1 gala apple: 1pts
1 serving Mexican meatloaf: 3pts
1 serving mac and cheese: 6pts
1 serving mixed veggies: 0pts
1 serving ice cream: 2pts
1 serving 94% fat free popcorn: 1pts
Total for the Day: 41/44pts
I am done eating! I dont think I could if I tried! I am getting better at the choices though!
1 year ago