The Journey So Far...

The Journey So Far...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Day 29

Keep moving forward, never give up, never start over.

This is my mantra right now. I need to keep moving forward no matter how hard I stumble, I need to never give up no matter how hard it gets, and I need to never make enough excuses for myself that I need to start over. Again.

Today the gym kicked my butt. I have felt like I was dragging tush all day. I only had cardio to do today, I needed to do 50 minutes at 2.4 to get 2 miles down. Today I felt my legs burning and my breathing was out of control. I have no idea what was up, because I don't always have such a hard time, and while it is harder than 2.3, it felt like so much more today. I wanted to quit so bad! I even got off the treadmill at 25 minutes done and went to get a drink of water. I felt my resolve slipping! It was so hard to face the next 25 minutes, but I did it! I made my two miles today, and it feels really good even though I feel pretty tired out. I have my circuit tomorrow, and I want to do 25/25 and my machines. I just have to keep telling myself what I am capable of, you know, giving yourself mental pep talks? I sometimes have to talk myself into the last 10 minutes. Never give up! I will be so amazingly proud of myself if I manage to make 10 miles this week!

I let myself be talked into a latte today! Argh, but it was Splenda only, except I belive it was whole milk and I am counting it as so!

regular sushi w/o sauce: 14pts
sushi w/ sauce: 4 pts
1 nutella sandwich: 4pts
Iced Latte of DOOM: 8pts
1 serving Beef and Potato Nacho Casserole: 6pts
1 cup ice cream: 3pts
15 wheat thins: 2pts
1 serving SW dip: 1pts
Total for the Day: 42/44
Leftover: 2/44

Eek. Not feeling as sure about this week so far, but I think I can bring it around. I need to eat more veggies again. Maybe tomorrow I will get out to the local produce stand and buy some things for a veggie medly to keep on hand.

Oh and also! How do I fight the urge to weigh myself every single day now that I am under 400? I know I shouldn't because when I do things that way I always get discouraged!

I can't let myself be discouraged!


Rettakat said...

"Never start over."

Oh, I sooo agree with this!! We can never go back really, and start over again like the first time (that is why I called mine a ReStart...not starting over). But we CAN go FORWARD, from wherever we are. We can keep going! We get up, we learn, and we go ON, with more lessons learned. That is exactly the way I see it, too.

About weighing...I think it is different for different personalities. Some are bothered by too frequent weighing...some enjoy it and find it motivating. So you must decide what type YOU are...whether you interpret it as a negative or a positive.

Me, I weigh maybe every two or three days... or just whenever I get curious. I appreciate the information, whatever it is.... But I always have my "official" once a week weigh-day, that gets recorded.

Chubby Chick said...

You are doing SO great! And I am SO happy for you! Congrats on being under 400 pounds! I know what it's like to be OVER 400... and it is NOT fun! So good for you for getting into the 390's! That is FANTASTIC!

Also... thanks so much for your support and encouraging comments. I haven't been able to blog much lately, and I'm sorry that I haven't been as supportive towards you and your weight loss as I'd like to be. But know that I am thinking of you and rooting for you... and I'll pop by as often as possible!

And... when you start to feel discouraged... just know that you are never, ever alone! I'm right here fighting the battle of the bulge, too. And we WILL win this war! :)