Day 16

Well today didn't get to involve ducks because my friends toddler was really sleepy (she missed her nap because of the dentist appointment), but I did make it to the gym.

I feel a little stuck at the gym because I am doing an average of 20 minutes on the Arc Trainer before I do my strength training. I try really hard to remind myself that I weigh 450 pounds and that I'm literally working my ass off. I sweat so hard that its running down my face and my neck. My hair gets wet. I was sweating so much after the Arc Trainer that when I was moving from machine to machine for strength training I was dripping on the floor of the gym. That actually made me smile a little. Sweat is fat crying!

My food was better today, but I have another long busy day and then a long busy weekend ahead of that. Some of this weekend is going to involve some emotional stress which is driving my anxiety up. I'm going to a birthday party for the child of a friend who was very close to me in the past who is now a little distant. The birthday cake is the least of my worries.

On Saturday I have an 8 hour long meeting for a nonprofit I work for throughout the year. We are putting on our big annual event in a month so its crunch time. I'm trying to put myself in the right mindset because during these meetings people are eating constantly. I need to have a plan and stick to it and be prepared for the unpredictable.

Wish me luck!

1 piece grilled chicken breasts
2 servings green beans
1 serving honey mustard
1 banana
1 salad (home made, spinach, pickles, tomatoes, bell peppers, carrots, avocado, bacon, croutons, shredded cheese, 2 servings dressing, all measured or weighed.)
1 can chunky beef vegetable soup
1 banana
1 light activia yogurt
1 package pepper jack crackers
1/2 cup steamed corn
1 cup steamed peas
2 dinner rolls
1 serving sloppy joes
2 servings broccoli cheese soup (home made)
1 cadbury ice cream bar

I have two points left.